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How to get Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in Eleven Seconds.

The internet is truly fulfilling its' potential to deliver mental wellness recovery tools for Veterans. Three resources we really like at VetXPRS: Active


It's great info. Completely anonymous and completely FREE. How great is that?


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We want to eliminate suicide by teaching Recovery.

"Breathe in Peace,

Breathe out Stress,

Relax the body,

Just think for a second about what you are trying to accomplish."

Visualize what you want! Start getting what you want.

Learn how to eliminate suicide here!


an email from our friend Kevin R in California

Brutus the Dog; half boxer, half English Bull Mastiff

The K9 above is Brutus

Brutus a military K9 at McChord Airforce Base.
He's huge - part Boxer and part British Bull Mastiff and tops the scales at 200 lbs. His handler took the picture.

Brutus is running toward me because he knows I have some Milk Bone treats, so he's slobbering away! I had to duck around a tree just before he got to me in case he couldn't stop, but he did.

Congressional Medal of Honor

Brutus won the Congressional Medal of Honor last year from his tour in Iraq . His handler and four other soldiers were taken hostage by insurgents. Brutus and his handler communicate by sign language and he gave Brutus the signal that meant 'go away but come back and find me'. The Iraqis paid no attention to Brutus. He came back later and quietly tore the throat out of one guard at one door and another guard at another door. He then jumped against one of the doors repeatedly (the guys were being held in an old warehouse) until it opened. He went in and untied his handler and they all escaped. He's the first K9 to receive this honor.

If he knows you're ok, he's a big old lug and wants to sit in your lap. Enjoys the company of cats. He's just like other Vets. He needs to know you're are okay.

Too bad for you if he decides you are Not okay!



What we need is Veterans who are willing to help.

Click here if you would be willing to take time off from work to take a Veteran to their appointment at the Salt Lake Specialty Clinic?

Put "I will drive" in the email subject line.

Click here if you would be willing to take a 3 am call from a Veteran in crisis who lives in your zip code?

Put "I will talk to a Vet" in the subject line.

Click here if you would be willing to spend a few hours learning how to be Veteran's Sponsor or a Mentor.

One of the best thing a person who wants to experience Recovery can do is to help another traveler experience Recovery.

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Click here if you would like to see a cool catalogue of all the great stuff we have for sale. A portion of all the profits go to serve Veterans.

You can actually choose the way you want things to be.

Tired of being stressed out, depressed and anxious? Can you imagine peace and well being? Tired of being poor and doing without? Choose abundance instead. We want to teach you how to get what you want. And it's free.

We didn't make this stuff up. Recovery ideas we talk about come from Evidence Based Cognitive Behavior Therapy. Simply said: "We know without doubt that we can physically rewire our brains with new neural pathways that can allow us to bypass old, self defeating behavior triggered by the stress injury.

Veterans can learn to move beyond medication and coping skills. Coping skills always fail in the end because they are completely reactive. A sailor with coping skills goes where the wind blows. A sailor in Recovery sets the sails to follow a chosen course. Recovery gives us the choice to live by our intention, not just reacting to a constant stream of stressors that buffet our lives.

Veterans can use the same science that Pavlov used to teach his beagles to drool when they heard the sound of a bell. Veterans can learn to reprogram their minds so that what once would be terribly stressful, like being cutoff in traffic, becomes a gratitude respone: "Boy am I glad I don't have to be such a hurry!" By changing our programming, events that once automatically set us off lose their power over us.


Vet Express features information that will help Veterans and their families to "Keep it Together". Conciously reprogramming the mind, a process I call active conditioning, is a skill that can be learned easily, but requires a lifetime of practice to master. How to Recover from the symptoms of Stress Related Brain Injuries in 180 Days with Active Conditioningt the guide to Wellness Recovery by W. Andrew Wilson, who publishes this website and

This ebook is coming soon in pdf format. Check back for a free copy.

Active Conditioning

We get to choose!

The core concept of active conditioning is that we can conciously choose how we want to live. Once we know what we want, we can choose to form new neural pathways the same way we chose to build muscle. The new ways of thinking lead to new ways of feeling and different feelings lead to different ways of doing things and the new way of behaving leads to a new and different life.

We can choose to condition ourselves. We can practice new behavior that eventually leads us to reach our dearest dreams. No longer are we condemned to repeat the same old unpleasant outcomes. We don't have to settle for outcomes we only endured in the past.

When we think, electricity flows in our body, especially the brain. Like water flowing downhill, the electricity follows the path of least resistance. With practice we can condition our brains to form new physical brain connections with virtually no resistance. Here's how:

When we choose to think new thoughts while we practice elementary yoga, new tendrils of thought and memory are created. The tendrils attract one another and form new super pathways of least resistance. You get to be in charge of making it happen within yourself. When you see that Recovery is actually possible and desirable, you canbegin to change the world by teaching the same skills to others.

We cannot stamp out darkness in our conditioning. It will always remain, like the older downtown in the heart of a city. But we can build a molecular bypass the same way hiway engineers build belt routes to carry express traffic. Remember: Just because things were always one way in the past does not guarantee things will always be that way. What's different is the idea that you can actually choose the way you want things to be.

Just like a muscle, if you don't use habitual thought processes, eventually the neural pathways atrophy. Still there but smaller. And the new idea's pathways strengthen with every repetition of thinking about the chosen idea.

We can change. We can Recover.
Make the right choice.

We also want to package all sorts of training materials from the National Alliance on Mental Illness and the VA. Like these:

Peer Support How to Manual writtten by Moe Armstrong:

Recovering from Trauma, A self help Guide from

A lawyers advice for protecting your identity

Veterans Courts: Often when a Veteran has PTSD, treatment is a better option than punishment.


In Utah Interstate 15 is the Veterans Memorial Highway


The Situation:

America has tens of thousands of Veterans who are suffering the effects of brain injuries sustained in the military. And these younger Veterans will do practically anything to avoid a "Mental" diagnosis. They know the true cost of what the media blithly calls "stigma". They don't want that millstone around their necks for the rest of their lives, no matter what the conditions of their Recovery.

Stress Relief KitVetXPRS believes that Veterans in Recovery (who are in relatively stable lives) can perform invaluable service to Veterans having problems keeping their feet on the ground. Veterans can serve Veterans. Maybe we just volunteer to take some time off work to deliver an old geezer who can't drive to a doctors appointment the old guy waited a long time for.

We believe that we Veterans can not wait for the VA or the Military to step up with a solution that has the promise of providing Veterans with abundant lives. The problem is too big for government to solve it. There are not enough psychiatrists and psychologists in the country to fulfill the need of our Veterans and their families.

Meanwhile, Veterans continue to commit suicide eighteen times a day. Channel 2 reported that the unemployment rate among Utah Veterans is twice as high as the Utah rate. Among our youngest Veterans (18-29) the unemployment rate is about thirty percent and among Minority Vets (18-29) the rate is as high as fifty percent.

The Government is not the solution. The Solution Is a Community Based, Vet to Vet Organization that Teaches Veterans to Teach Veterans How to Recover what we call the abundant life. We are suggesting that the only way to really help our Veterans is with the Veteran equivalent of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Our Mission:

Our Mission is to offer hope and share abundance and Recovery with Veterans and their families. We know that serious trauma effects the whole family, not just the one who experienced danger.

What are the symptoms of brain injury that can disrupt the family?

Stress related brain injuries including traumatic brain injury or post traumatic stress can cause many symptoms. These symptoms can be grouped into three categories:

1. Re-experiencing symptoms:

  • Flashbacks—reliving the trauma over and over, including physical symptoms like a racing heart or sweating
  • Bad dreams
  • Frightening thoughts.

Re-experiencing symptoms may cause problems in a person’s everyday routine. They can start from the person’s own thoughts and feelings. Words, objects, or situations that are reminders of the event can also trigger re-experiencing.

2. Avoidance symptoms:

  • Staying away from places, events, or objects that are reminders of the experience
  • Feeling emotionally numb
  • Feeling strong guilt, depression, or worry
  • Losing interest in activities that were enjoyable in the past
  • Having trouble remembering the dangerous event.

Things that remind a person of the traumatic event can trigger avoidance symptoms. These symptoms may cause a person to change his or her personal routine. For example, after a bad car accident, a person who usually drives may avoid driving or riding in a car.

3. Hyperarousal symptoms:

  • Being easily startled
  • Feeling tense or “on edge”
  • Having difficulty sleeping, and/or having angry outbursts.

Hyperarousal symptoms are usually constant, instead of being triggered by things that remind one of the traumatic event. They can make the person feel stressed and angry. These symptoms may make it hard to do daily tasks, such as sleeping, eating, or concentrating.

It’s natural to have some of these symptoms after a dangerous event. Sometimes people have very serious symptoms that go away after a few weeks. This is called acute stress disorder, or ASD. When the symptoms last more than a few weeks and become an ongoing problem, they might be PTSD. Some people with PTSD don’t show any symptoms for weeks or months.


A Veteran sits on the street waiting for handouts for "Alcohol Research"

Our mission is to teach Mental Health Wellness Recovery to Veterans and their families. This information base and skill set is priceless. And it is free.



We organize Veterans who are experiencing Recovery and give them the opportunity to learn and "sponsor" other Veterans. We teach Active Conditioning and "mindfullness" to anyone dealing with stress. This proven method of dealing with stress is simple as breathing and thinking. Simple as it is, it can be incredibly helpful to someone who experiencing symptoms that indicate that they have had a brain injury. This is especially true for someone determined to avoid a mental diagnosis at all costs.

Administration and Logistics:

We believe that the technology is redily available at little or no cost to allow us to assemble a network of Veterans dedicated to helping other Veterans have a great life. We can, for a minor investment in social media, communicate and motivate a loyal cadre of Veterans who believe with their whole hearts:

We don't leave anyone behind.


Command and Control:

We are a Volunteer organization. We provide a model. We testify that our aim is true and that Recovery is possible. We teach correct principles and our members command and control themselves.


The Need for VetXPRS

Multiple tours of Iraq and Afghanistan have impacted untold thousands of our Veterans with Stress Related Brain Injuries and readjustment difficulties. The Department of Defense has documented that upwards of thirty percent of these young Veterans will experience PTSD after a tour of combat. How about after two or three tours? This small number ignores the impact of military sexual assault and domestic trauma. The number one cause of stress injuries in the US?

Car wrecks!

Everybody experiences major stress from time to time. VetXPRS and Active Conditioning work for the whole family... not just the one who was injured.

The point is that we have thousands of combat Veterans of all ages, going back to WW II, Korea, Vietnam, Granada, Somalia, Desert Shield, Desert Storm, as well as the younger Veterans, who have undiagnosed mental health wellness deficiencies. They avoid any contact with the VA, much less a diagnosis, much less treatment. And who can blame them?

The PTSD label is like a big L branded into the Veterans forehead. They are drinking, drugging, crashing their crotch rockets, messing up at work, breaking up their homes and families, getting in trouble with criminal justice, ending up in jail or killing themselves. Sadly, these Veterans don't have character defects; they have verifiable brain injuries. Most sadly, these injuries often break up families, causing kids to grow up without their parents, and Veterans are growing older without spouses, or their children. So what can we do about it? We in the community can accept the responsibility to help these Veterans:

  1. We can teach anyone who will listen that we have tens of thousands of Veterans out there suffering from stress related brain injuries and that these Veterans will go to extreme lengths to avoid a mental diagnosis because of the lifelong stigma attached.
  2. We are recruiting Veterans who are "doing okay" to teach other Veterans and their families that Recovery is within reach for anyone who is willing to make the effort. The brain will always be damaged, but by working on a program that actually rewires the brain like Pavlov conditioned his dogs, symptoms can become virtually undiagnosable. These skills and tools are easily found online and are easily taught from one Veteran in Recovery to other Veteran. This is much the same way one alcoholic helps another to stay sober.
  3. One of the most crucial elements of Veteran Recovery is a "resilient social network" that accepts the Veteran and their brain injury, rather than condemning the Veteran as a loser with a character defect. Recovery begins with a desire in the heart to recover, but is carried out in the home and community. Nothing is more important to recovery than a caring family.

The Veterans Administration is already the second largest Federal Agency. Only the Department of Defense is larger. In spite of massive budget and staff increases (a Ten Billion Dollar increase in 2010) the VA is falling further behind with the demand for mental health resources. This situation is only going to get worse. Today, only one in five Veterans with PTSD or brain injury are seeking aid. One high ranking mental health professional at the Salt Lake City VA said that "If every Veteran who qualifies for mental health services were to apply all at once; there would not be enough psychiatrists and psychologists in the entire country to fill the demand."

Meanwhile, our youngest Veterans are spiralling into Chaos. The earliest stages of stress injury include:

These problems only get worse over time without intervention. VetXPRS seeks to help Veterans and families catch these problems early before they turn into Suicide, Murder, Armed Assault, Domestic Violence, and worst; Broken Families.

The Chinese have a saying: "Man wait long time for roast duck to fly in mouth." Veterans who wait for the government, especially the VA, to solve their problems are condemned to frustration and chaos.

The Solution Is a Community Based, Vet to Vet Organization that Teaches Veterans to Teach Veterans How to Recover Mental Wellness. We are suggesting that the only way to really help our Veterans is with the Veteran equivalent of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Fortunately for Veterans, advanced neuro-imaging of the brain proves that ancient practices, like meditation, and adjusting breathing patterns can actually transform the wiring of the brain.

The electricity in a thought behaves a lot like a raindrop on the window, following the path of least resistance. When we activly condition the brain to create new neural pathways, new habits of thought are formed. New ways of thinking have ultimate power over how we act. It is a fact that we can develop new neurons and neural pathways at any age. It takes practice. It is a process, not a destination.

Those doctors who taught us we could never recover from the trauma were right about one thing. A brain injured by trauma may never biologically recover. We may never remove tangled short circuit thought patterns. But we can build new neural super highways that simply bypass injured part of the brain, eliminating old self defeating behaviors. Experts agree that PTSD symptoms can become virtually undiagnosable.

VetXPRS is a Veteran to Veteran volunteer training organization. We hook Veterans up with other Veterans to enhance our community Recovery. It costs nothing to join. You can download tons of content for free. Recovery is real and belonging to VetXPRS can deliver the goods.

People join us when they want to learn new skills and change their lives. We share the camraderie and ways we can enrich each others lives and Recovery. We believe the most powerful action a Veteran can take to enhance their own recovery is to help someone else Recover Wellness. This entails learning and teaching. You learn something about Recovery and you share that wisdom with others.

We incorporate elements of 12 Step Programs such as "Recovery is predicated on a relationship with a higher power" and "Freedom allows us to choose our own way. We are not cursed or doomed by the past." We have wrapped Mental Health Wellness Recovery in non-threatening, non-denominational wrappings. No stigma. As Steven Covey teaches: "Truth is truth, but sometimes we can appreciate it anew by changing the context." And you don't need a Ph.D. to teach someone a different way to practice breathing.

For 40 years Veterans have been told that PTSD is a permanent injury and that the best we could hope for was to learn "Coping Skills." Todays' Veterans are learning that the VA has evidence that the best treatment for PTSD is Cognitive Behavior Therapy. (Read about the National Center for PTSD and CBT here:)

The Point is that there is Evidence that Cognitive Behavior Therapy actually works and that Recovery from PTSD is possible.

Unfortunately many Veterans find the Veterans Administration's policies and procedures to be stressful beyond bearing. They avoid any connection with the bureaucracy with every fiber of their being. These are the Veterans we are reaching with VetXPRS.

VetXPRS offers a treasure of Recovery alternatives for Veterans experiencing readjustment difficulties who wish to remain as far removed from the VA as possible. An powerful alternative to PTSD behavior is a form of Prayer or Meditation called Active Conditioning:

1. We breathe in Peace

1. We breath out Stress; making extra effort to exhale the stale air that gets caught in the bottom of our lungs

As we exhale we teach ourselves to
3. Relax the body.

As we relax, the shutter in our mind's eye opens for an instant and we can
4. Visualize
what it is we desire at the time. In that moment of imagining what we want, we can create new filaments of neural pathways... actual nerve fibers grow and connect. Thousands of repetitons of the mindful breathing can create new neural pathways that are so powerful that our brains forget to think in the old, habitual ways... even if that old habitual way is a survival strategy that kept us and our buddies alive in combat

The Background of VetXPRS:

Vet Express is being organized by Veterans: W. Andrew Wilson, a Vietnam combat veteran who is Recovering from PTSD. Bob Debes, also a Vietnam Veteran who served as a Forward Air Controller. Gerald Hubbard was a Marine Corp Officer. He has been active in Veterans affairs for many years. We have been involved in PTSD Recovery efforts since 1980 when PTSD was first included in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual. Wilson and Hubbard have recently been trained in Prolonged Exposure Therapy, and Mindfulness Breathing at the Sheridan VA Hospital (2010). Wilson was found 100 percent disabled with PTSD by the VA in 2010 has grown out of, which grew out of the Utah County Veterans Council, which grew out of the Provo Veterans Council in 2003. Wilson was President, and Bob Debes was Vice President of the Utah County Veterans Council. The Veterans Council was comprised of the leadership of most of Utah County's Veterans Service Organization such a the American Legion and Veterans of Foreign Wars. was originally the newsletter for the County Veterans Council. We began with 30 subscribers in 2003. Now we have about 150,000 per month. They read a digest of content of interest to Veterans, gleaned from everywhere. Over the last two years more and more of the content has focused on Recovery and the barriers to recovery that Veterans and families often experience.


We are building a national organization of Veteran volunteers who want to serve other Veterans with good council, transportation, and friendship. The heart of the organization will be a scalable website: VetXPRS that can deliver online education, a video library, and other training and networking resources that will enhance individual Veteran's opportunities to Recover, learn skills, and gain insight about Mental Health Wellness. We do not have to invent these Recovery techniques and learning tools. By working closely with, google for veterans, the National Alliance of Mental Illness, and the VA we can adapt their content, and deliver that content to Veterans and their families. Moreover, we can deliver content while we insulate the Veteran from the stigma of bearing a formal diagnosis of PTSD or other mental illness. (Which can prevent them from buying Life Insurance, and make other insurance more expensive.) Ironically, Recovery is good but a Mental Illness diagnosis is bad.

We assert that the Family is the fundamental pillar of a Veteran's recovery. There is nothing more central to a Veteran's recovery than living principles that preserve and enhance their families. We teach the correct principles. For example: Gravity always works. We don't have to like it. Lying never works. We don't have to like it. Recovery is a gradual program of learning new fundamental truth that actually change our brain chemistry.

Another role of the website is to facilitate relationships veteran to veteran, and family to family. We are helping organize training sessions where Veterans can teach each other how to create change within relationships that bolster and enhance mental health wellness recovery. A key element is that one of the best ways to assure Recovery is to get involved in teaching Recovery.

We want to raise money for spreading the work with e commerce. We want to sell books, DVDs, T-shirts, Decals, etcetera. We want to organize seminars and rallies to generate the excitement that Recovery is Actually Possible! Of course, donations to help accelerate the work are welcome.


Active Conditioning:

The Veterans Administration has spent 100 million dollars over the last ten years to learn, what, if anything, can help the tens of thousands of Veterans experiencing symptoms of what we call brain flash. (Brain Flash is what happens when the brain is suddenly hit with stimulus far beyond what the brain is physiologically able to handle.) What the evidence points to is Cognitive Behavior Therapy really works. We have the proof. All we have to do is change our Cognition. When we can change the way we think, our Behavior automatically changes. When we can control and direct our behavior everything in life changes. Relationships can be restored and enhanced. Families on the brink of disaster can get back to when the relationships were all getting better, not worse. The process of changing the way we think is what the VA calls therapy. To do therapy at the VA, you have to be "Mental." No way, Jose. What they call therapy, we ignore in favor of actually re-wiring our brains with Active Conditioning. Just doing our little breathing and thinking routine can tremendously accelerate our ability to create new neural pathways that help us get what we want, based on improving our ability to make good choices.

Among these choices, Active Conditioning helps us learn that if we are burning up 80 percent of our energy coping with crises, we only have 20 percent of our energy to plan, or learn, or chose. Veterans report that after just a week of Active Conditioning they were much less anxious and depressed. Active Conditioning puts the Veteran in command of his thoughts.

Does it always work? Hell no. But it works much better than heavy medication and industrial strength coping skills.

VetXPRS has a proprietary Recovery Program we call "Active Conditioning" that combines elements of "Mindfulness" and Cognitive Behavior Therapy (taught by the VA) with traditional self improvement literature going all the way back to "Benjamin Franklin's Autobiograpy". We link to, and advocate for, a number of other emerging excellent web based Recovery training programs such as, the National Alliance of Mental Illness training programs, These programs incorporate some of the best elements of the VA outpatient therapy programs. There is no stigma and no time limit and practically no expense. We have a burning desire to share the content. and are built to deliver the goods.

The site, as it grows, will provide info, an enrollment form that allows Veterans to volunteer, or to accept help, an RSS feed signup, Podcasts, Twitter, Facebook, and other social media. Our target audience is younger veterans, because their need is most pressing. Suicide is at tragic proportions among these heroes. We want to accomodate their preferences while respecting the technological limitations of The Vietnam generation that thinks eMail is the pinnacle of communication technology.

There is nothing more central to a Veteran's recovery than living principles that preserve and enhance their families. We can create a web site where we teach the correct principles. VetXPRS Recovery program works to stem a rising tide of young Veterans' incarceration, mental health hospital-izations, and suicide. We expect full cooperation with the VA, NAMI, and many others such as Intermountain Health Care; who will provide VetXPRS with some of the finest web based diabetes recovery info that exists. With a powerful, beautiful website we will create a network of hundreds and thousands of Veterans all dedicated to the idea that Recovery is not only desirable but also Achievable for themselves and their families. Change can take place where Acceptance, Awareness, and Hope intersect. VetXPRS is that intersection.


Financial Considerations

We need donations to help incorporate our non-profit corporation and build out our web sites. We want to hire a top MBA student to manage a team of student interns. We want the MBA Mentor because our cause is important to our community and because we want the strongest possible team, to obtain the best possible result. We believe student interns can help us promote a site that is far superior to anything we could afford to buy on the open market. That team will position us to obtain the necessary funding from sponsors that will allow us to quickly reach a national audience. We also are looking to civic organizations such as Rotary, the Exchange Club, the Chamber of Commerce, and Home Builders Associations to fund costs of travelling, web hosting, web development, printing, telephone, etcetera. More importantly, people in those organizations all know Veterans who "are just not the same since the war." The members of these organizations are like capilaries that reach into the community and feed Veterans into the Recovery movement; specifically into VetXPRS.